Anonymous asked: what do you think of shipping Arthur/Ariadne now?
Errr…the same thing I did yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that…?
I’m going to take a wild stab in the dark here, anon and assume that you’re asking me (and feel free to put me right if I’ve got it wrong): Has my opinion of A/A changed since Ellen Page came out?
Short answer: no
Long answer: I’m pretty sure I’ve said before, but I don’t consider the actor and the character they play interchangeable. Ariadne is a character, and as such she’s a chimera: Ellen Page played her, Christopher Nolan wrote her and directed her, Jeffery Kirland dressed her, et cetera. As she is, I still find her relationship to Arthur the most compelling and interesting. Ellen’s performance convinced me that she had some interest in Arthur beyond a mere colleague and that’s what I’m going on.
Ellen, on the other hand, is a real person who has her own thoughts, desires and unhappiness that we cannot ever know unless she chooses to tell us. Her speech was her choosing to reveal something of herself in an open and brave way in the hope she and others can live more honest and authentic lives. Make no mistake, I have nothing but love and admiration for her, now even more so. Her courage, clarity and intelligence were awe inspiring- if we were all blessed with one tenth of her insight this might indeed be a much better world. If you wanted to some words to live by, you could do a lot worse than her suggestion we be less horrible to each other.
Now, I’m not sure if you’re telling me that shipping a character played by a gay actor is the last word in gay erasure, or if you’re gloating and insinuating my ship got sunk or you’re really worried I’m homophobic and am going to abandon in the name of being so repelled. The first two can be cleared up in a snap: Ellen is the one who came out, not Ariadne (nor, for that matter, did Juno, Tracey, Hayley, Monica, Izzie or Bliss.) I’d also encourage you to look up gay erasure, which is a genuine issue and not one to be applied lightly or flippantly. Real historical figures or canonically established ones being retrospectively ignored or straight washed to make them ‘more acceptable’, like it or not, isn’t the same.
On the final point, please don’t assume that because I write het I’m a homophobe, anti slash or anything like that. You can tell nothing concrete about me from my fic; you only know what I choose to reveal about myself, here or anywhere else I interact with you. What can you tell? I’m British; I write fic; I like A/A; I’m vegan; I knit; I don’t have a middle name- all things I’ve categorically stated at various points. So let me state something else categorically to put pay to any notions of my being a raging anti gay, pro het, weeping all the straight tears twit:
I am bisexual. I’ve had relationships with women and men. I’m not straight with men and gay with women; I’m myself in all states. I believe in equal treatment in law and society for all. I have infinite respect for people like Ellen, Evan Rachel-Wood, Anna Paquin, Jodie Foster, Jillian Michaels, Alan Cumming, Sir Ian McKellen, even THard, for choosing to be open about their own sexuality so people like myself can live how we like. I wanted to be honest about this now, partly because Ellen said in her speech that living openly, honestly and authentically was the hardest thing, but also a way to free yourself; and partly because I am tired of the idea that what you ship, read, eat, do, wear, etc. can be allowed to define so many things about you in other’s minds.
So, I understand anon that this might disgust you so much you cannot read my fic or follow me anymore- that’s fine. But at least you’re doing this in the full knowledge of where I stand, and I’d rather have that than have you think I was other than I am. I’ll be sorry to lose you, and anyone else who chooses not to stick around, but bear in mind I’m still who I was; you just know a bit more about me. The same goes for Ellen; she’s still who she is, we’re just less ignorant about her than we were before. If you loved her before, you can love her now. I know I do, and that I’m not the only one :)
It’s taken a lot to do this anon, and tbh I nearly answered this by saying “hahaha what the actual fuck? Why do you care what I think?” And I apologise for the tl;dr response in trying to answer you. In short? I’m not going anywhere.
Bravo, kore-r, bravo.